30's kinda suck

So I came to the conclusion today that the 30's kinda suck. I'm getting wrinkles, my hair is turning gray, "me time" is practically nonexistent. I have to workout like a mad woman to get this pregnancy weight off once and for all.(okay, maybe it's not pregnancy weight anymore. I did have my last child more than 4 years ago!!! but it makes me feel better to think that I got fat for a reason and I can't think of any better reason to get fat than to bring another life into this world) I spend most of my days doing things for other people. I am not sure what I expected my 30's to be like. That was waaaay to far in the future to think about. It kinda snuck up on me. I did however think that I would be fabulously wealthy and I would absolutely love being a stay at home mom. Now dont get me wrong I do love being at home with my children but their have been many days that I have happily turned the kids over to Jai so that I could run off to work and not have to deal with the tears and the whining. Oh wait a minute, I still have to deal with that from patients in the ER. Anyway, I am glad that I am more sure of myself in my 30's. I know what I want and I am not afraid to tell people no anymore. I'm not afraid to speak my mind and am not worried about what other people think of me. I just hope I can come to terms with the wrinkles and the gray hair and realize I have earned them and not hate them. Yeah right!!